good bye my old friend

i had a terrible week, and i'm sure the next days will not be much better. last monday i made a painfull decision and i lost an important friend. my 16 years old cat susi died. two weeks ago i saw that she didn't feel well. i thought she had an inflammation in her mouth because pus and later blood dropped out of her mouth. but i was wrong and to be honest i guessed it secretly. she had a great tumor in her mouth - i saw the black death and it was terrible view. it must be so painfull for her but it's hard to regognize it. cats are such destinguished animals. i had only one decision ......... this was one of the most worst moments in my life!!!! susi was 16 years my friend. we were together all the time. i spent half of my life with her and she was such a strong and lovely cat. from the first minute of her life i was by her side, and now 16 years later i was by her side in the last minutes of her life. she died in my arms.... my heart is hurting so much. the pain is indescribable. i can't belive that she is gone... forever. i do and i will grieve about her. it feel like something from my inside died with her. now, nearly one week later i feel little better, i stoped crying the whole day, only one or two times the day. i miss her so much but i know it was the right decison. she was sick and it was so painfull for her. but it fucking hurts so much that she is not around me anymore. i will love her forever and she will always have a special part in my heart!!! i put some pics of her in my house. for me it feels like she is still here because i can see her all the time.

if you have pets - love them as much as you can. treat them good. sure, sometimes they get on our nerves and they are annoying and you scold them but trust me - i wish i could clean up her food mess in the kitchen or her pee when she made it next to her toilet, or hearing her screaming when she was hungry... i miss her every night - she slept next to my hat and i heard her purring the whole time :)

susi i will love you forever!!!!

 

du warst immer an meiner seite und ich danke dir für jeden moment den ich mit dir verbringen durfte. du warst meine freundin und ich vermisse dich ohne ende. ruhe in frieden meine süße maus, ich denke an dich!!!!

fushimi inari shrine and my area- kyoto report 1

after my time in tokyo andre and i drove to kyoto for our "relaxing holiday". so far i always had a japan railpass and i used the shinkansen from tokyo to kyoto. but this time we decided to use the nightbus. actually the japanese railpass is perfect if you plan to travel a lot in japan, but only for one ride from tokyo to kyoto it was not really usefull for us.

a friend told me to use the willer bus service to go to kyoto. it was so easy to order the tickets and we only payed 6200 yen each person. we started near the tokyo station and it was also very simple to find the bus waiting point. we drove over night from 22.45 o'clock till 6.30 o'clock in the next morning. 


 

we had more space in the bus like in the airplane and it was kind of comfortable but i couldn't sleep well. for me the bus drove to fast and sometimes i was really afraid of an accident. i was sooooooo relieved when we arrived kyoto!!! i don't know if i will use a nightbus again. it's a good and cheap alternative for a shinkansen but i feel more safe in the train :)

it was about 7.00 in the mornin when we arrived at our guest house the hana hostel. 

 

the hostel is near located to the kyoto station and very near to the yodobashi camera (one of my favorite places in kyoto^^). we had a japanese style room. it was clean, nice and cheap but i prefer hotels and next time i will go to toyoko inn again.

 our room - full with my stuff ^^

after we left our luggage in the storrage room we went to the famous fushimi inari shrine. this place is awesome!!! it's hard to describe but if you like japanese culture and their religion this one of the most impressive places. it's no problem to spent ours there :) 

it was so early and we only met few people. it was cold but sunny and we had a great view over kyoto. for me this is perfect to gain energy and to recover from all mental stress.

and here some impressions of my area and lucky me - a coco curry house was near our hostel *yeah* i miss this curry sooooooooooo much!!!

 

 

 

 

 

this and that - tokyo report 5

this time i only spend 6 days in tokyo. it was kind of short but i really needed time to rest and to gain new energy. and for me, this is not possible in tokyo *haha* - my real holiday started in kyoto :) but i had again a wonderful time in tokyo.

my last days in tokyo were eventful :) i met again katrin and nicola, i bought some great clothes from dilga, lip service, cecile mcbee and gladnews, i survived the new year sale in the shibuya 109 and i had the second worst hangover in my life :)

here some impressions of this days:

 

 i love meat :) especially with curry sauce :)

 my shiseido lucky bag

 in front of the shibuya 109 - i think there were more than 50 cops :)

 cute shop stuff from dilga where i bought my new read coat (you can see the coat on the left side)

 

puris with katrin

 

 puris with miri and andre

 

 

  yakiniku evening with friends and to much alcohol (for me) :(
the next day was horrible - i had such a bad hangover.....

puris with nicola on the bad bad hangover day :) oh man this day was sooooooooooooo hard!!!! i really don't want to feel that way again. fucking makkori - this drink was def. to strong for me.

thank you all who spent time with me in tokyo. it was great to meet you and i had lot of fun ^^